Wednesday, 16 May 2012

meet Abu....

my close friends will definitely know who is Abu....
it's been six years we have been together... he is almost with me all the time..
i have lost it once.. but luckily i got it back...

this morning at my workplace a lecturer come to me and ask me to lend him a pen...
Dr: excuse me, may i borrow your pen?
me: yeah sure..... (trying to reach for something in my handbag but couldn't find what i was looking for)
       oh, sorry.... i left abu....
Dr: Abu? what abu?
me; owh... abu.. i mean my pencil case, abu...
Dr: ????

meet my sugar honey baby abu.......

Wednesday, 28 March 2012

letter to my parents

Dear umi and abah,

congrats to both of u because u have managed to put up with me and my stubbornness for 24years and six months of my life.
i know it is not easy to raise up a girl, and when it comes to a girl like me, the challenges is doubled. it is a tough challenge indeed.
i remember you told me when i was in my secondary school that among all of my siblings, i am the hardest to be taken care of. since i was a kid, i always gave you lots of problems.. i had lots of fights with my friends and you are the one who has to bear the consequences when their mom come to find me.
my siblings labelled me as ajib in 'anak2 sidek' because they said that i am your favourite daughter.. i know i am! i can't stand when u are mad at me.. and it is impossible to not get mad at me... i know.
i think it is true when they say that second child is different in their character and they have this 'second child syndrome'. i am different.. i always speak up my mind till at some point i may sounded rude but please know that it is not my intention to disobey you both. i'm sorry..
Umi and Abah,
this naughty daughter of yours promise to you that one day, she will make you both so proud of her... she will...


Monday, 26 March 2012

30 Days, 30 Letters challenge

30 Days, 30 Letters.

this week has been a very tough week... lots of bad things happened and i really need something to put my focus on.. so this is it. i'm up for it now..

30 Day Challenge

Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Sunday, 18 March 2012

it's a sad day...

i received a text from my brother this evening saying that my sister in law just had a struck me with the ache feeling in my heart... it is the kind of intense emotional pain...

i always love babies... i can feel the serenity in their smile, i love it when their tiny fist clenched and grip my finger in it.... i like their smell too.. so i was very excited with my sister in law's pregnancy.. i just can't wait to have my first nephew ( i predicted that he is a baby boy).

i'm thinking of giving my sis in law a call to give her my moral support.. but i'm still figuring out what to say.. the only thing that make me accept the lost is to think that he is in a better place now.. i pray that my sis in law and my bro will stay strong... it's their first child, my parent's first grandchild, my first nephew... just like the first love, every first 'thing' has its extra sentimental value..

Al Fatihah, Auntie Zaza loves u... always....

Tuesday, 13 March 2012

being single is the best (for me), for the time being.. why? cekidaut...

who says single life sux eh? put your hands down...

sebenaqnya takdela teruk sangat hidup single ni... buat mase skarang.. aku rase lagi enjoy! serius!

tapi tak boleh dinafikan la kadang2 tu dia mai jugak rase lonely.. dok mai gak tringat kenangan lama.. tapi semua tu boleh tolak tepi bila ade kawan2 yang sempoi dikeliling anda.

bagi orang yang berhati marshmallow macam aku lah kan lebih baik single dulu time2 blaja.. sebab aku ni jenis emo boleh tahan jugak.. tambah kalo berkaitan ngan orang yang aku sayang.. so banyak effect dia dekat study. kalo time tengah bahagia tu tak pe, belajar pon semangat jugak tapi bila gaduh sket, nages je la aku bawah bantal tapi tu dulu! skang tidak lagi.... huuuu malu pulak betapa tak matangnya aku DULU. bajet skang matang sangat la.

kalo ikotkan rekod2 dalam diari aku, banyak gila benda bodoh yang aku buat sebab cinta kononnya sebagai contoh sanggup ni ponteng kelas naik bas 5 jam semata nak pujuk boyfriend merajuk... penah jugak time gaduh aku leh survive satu hari makan betik je satu slice!

oke, cukup la cerita pasal kebodohan2 lepas. Sekurang2nya kebodohan tu la yang ajar aku jadi kuat sket dari dulu. Sebelum nak cintai orang, kena cintai diri sendiri dulu, paling utama, cintai Allah dulu. skang aku lebih kenal diri aku, dah tau pattern emosi aku macam mana... macam ni haa

semakin tinggi cinta, semakin kuat efeknya terhadap emosi!

okay, lesson learnt! taknak lagi aku jadi macam gadis dalam video ni

i have been there, done that!

so menjadi seorang yang single skang ni aku bertanggunjawab atas kebahagiaan aku sendiri. maksudnya, aku tak harap orang lain yang buat aku bahagia. mana aku nak pegi aku boleh pegi je... aku nak buat ape time weekend pon aku tak perlu mintak 'approval' dari sape2.. banyak yang aku tinggal mase aku kapel dulu aku dah kejar balik mase aku single ni. mungkin sebab tu jugak aku lebih berhati2 nak letak perasaan kat sape2 pon skang.

aku ade jugak crush kat sorang ni. tapi aku takkan confess kat dia. baik aku mengadu ngan Allah je ye dak? kalau jodoh tak kemana.. tapi tu crush je... cinta aku ade ngan aku lagi.. tak bagi kat sape2 pon.. biarla yang terima cinta tu yang betol2 layak... ade jugak aku cuba terima someone, tapi aku tak yakin dia betol2 sayang aku.. so skang aku nak kejar cita2 dulu la... kalo betol dia serius pegi la jumpe Encik Zaidi...

aku harap aku dapat terus single sampai la aku kawen, lepas tu baru kapel!

Sunday, 11 March 2012

"broga hill, tiring but not challenging- nama mad"

yes, i do agree with the above title quoted from a friend of mine

i never been to broga hill before therefore i was really excited to go there.. i had googled about other's experiences to prepare myself and to have a clear view of what i'm gonna face.

we have planned to start our journey at 4 am and being an insomniac homo sapien like me, i couldn't sleep at all that night. (don't do this!) i reckon that my stamina went down and when i reached half of the hill i already felt fatigue and couldn't catch my breath. so i stop for a while and asked them to continue hiking. they refused to leave me so i made my little move till i felt okay again.

my advice is not to go there during weekend, it was very crowded so we can only move slowly and it is such a waste of energy.

it took only about 35 minutes to reach the top but we didn't make it to the 1st peak cos one of us felt dizzy. we stick to our slogan 'leave no man behind'

the view is nice, but not the best of what i have watched. i had my moment of silence up there, i really like to lose my self in the deep thought when i am enjoying nature.